Just SMILE & It'll be alright ,

I guest I am a fool . I really have become Tohru . I always smile & I promised myself not to wipe-off the smile no matter how the storm going to kill me . I was being too kind & generous . I make people priority 1st than myself . I took cared of other people's heart than myself . coz I'm like Tohru , I want everyone that knows me is HAPPY & LOVE being around me . Although I know at that times they 're just using me for their own beneficial . I always longing to have a true friend beside me . But none , I've found none . I'm sad . Even the ones I loved tricked me & used me . Now I am NOTHING . I don't understand. I've treated them nice . why? But why they 're all leaving me . Coiled up on this dirty ground with so cold damn stare eyes . They looked me as if I'm too filthy to be their friends . Hey , arent they forgetting the whole idea ? I WAS their friend. I fall to the ground , lying there hoping someone , my true friend will save me from all this. I cried but no tears are seen coz its a HEAVY FUCKIN DAMN BLOODY RAIN in my heart . You may read this as if I'm crying writing this down BUT I'm not . In fact , I smiled . One wished , I hope I'll smile too when it is time to leave this SEKAI .